should old acquaintance be forgot...

Well, I thought I would write a post on the fact that 2005 has flown by like a whippersnapper (I think I should copyright that expression). I kind of forgot for a while that New Years comes after Christmas... Anyway, to put this year in perspective, I think it's important to realize how we've changed and grown since we popped open that champagne bottle (champagne's gross, I don't drink- it's just fun to open it), and banged on those pots and pans almost exactly one year ago.

Where was I at this time last year? To be honest, I don't really remember. Haha... that's really funny. It's not because I was drunk or anything- that's not my scene- but I honestly don't remember.

But, I can remember that two years ago I really liked this guy and was trying to convice him to come hang out with me and my friends on New Years Eve. But, he had just broken his arm really badly and I think his mom wanted him to stay home and rest. So I thought that he was going to stay home when he told me he couldn't come- but I found out at school that he ended up going out with him friends.
Now, he did tell me that he liked me a couple of days before, so I would like to stress the fact that I wasn't some needy, annoying girl BEGGING him to come over. I don't do that- I put great effort into not being that person.
He didn't come.
And I had fun with my friends.
I still really liked him, and at school we hung out together a little bit, but I guess he lost interest in me after a while.

So it's been two years since that happened, and only now am I truly beginning to understand that God didn't want me to be with him because he did NOT treat me the way that a guy treats a girl that he really cares about. In fact, I don't think he really cared at all, because for almost the entire time that I liked him (and he supposedly liked me), there was ALWAYS another girl in the picture. It was like he couldn't make up his mind. He would juggle between us, either ignoring me and hanging out with her, or vice versa. It still makes me angry when I think about it. And it still hurts a little. So I would like to say to any guy who's reading this- don't do that kind of stuff! If you don't like a girl, or even if you do like her but don't want to be serious about it, BE HONEST! Don't play games like this guy did. Even if she's really mad at you at first, she will be grateful in the long run that you didn't allow her to waste her time on you if you don't want to be with her.
I kind of hope that one day, I will be able to to tell the guy who did this to me that he was a jerk. Or maybe, he will realize it on his own after all the girls he hurt gang up on him!

Don't get me wrong- I know that there are good guys out there, and I know that God has one just for me... I just wish he would hurry up... Any thoughts?

Ciao, bella
-ellie