3, 2, 1...oh wait..okay, now! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

So, here I am, home with my family on New Year's Eve. I am tempted to be bitter that no one invited me anywhere... but I'm assuming that my friends know that I'm not into the whole P-A-R-T-Y scene. I've tried really hard to do get into that stuff. But, man... no matter how many times I tell myself that... it's still hard to resist feeling left out. It's like I'm stuck watching on the sidelines. It's tough to stand up for what you believe sometimes... but I can't try and convince myself that I belong in a place when I really don't.

On a happier note... There is less than one hour left of 2005! I've been asking my family and a couple other people what they want to do in 2006 that they have never done before. Most of the responses they've gave had to do with crazy stunts like sky diving or bungee-jumping. My mom wants to learn how to crochet.
Here's a list of few of mine:
1. Go to Disneyland! (No, I have never been before...I know, its sad.)
2. Learn how to play a fancy-schmancy song by Beethoven or somebody on the piano.
3. Write a song.
4. Get my L (learner's license... no I haven't gotten that yet either. I have no time in my life.)
5. Read a really famous, old book... like War & Peace or something.
6. Go skiing or snowboarding. I know, i know. I don't get out much.
7. Fall in love...? It's on my list... but is it on God's...? I dunnnoooo!

Well. As for 2005, I accomplished a couple of things that I'm super proud of...
1. Hiked the West Coast Trail! (I didn't get hurt too severely, I might add. Just a few weeks of waiting for blisters to heal...)
2. Got through the first set of Provincial Exams...gah.
3. Changed schools.
4. Started playing piano after like 8 years of refusing to.
5. Joined the basketball team!
6. Came to a clearer understanding of who I am- my strengths, weaknesses, flaws... and everything else. But I still have a long way to go.

and there's sooo much more... but my momma is calling me... time for the count down!

It's been a good year. I hope you can say the same.

ellie

should old acquaintance be forgot...

Well, I thought I would write a post on the fact that 2005 has flown by like a whippersnapper (I think I should copyright that expression). I kind of forgot for a while that New Years comes after Christmas... Anyway, to put this year in perspective, I think it's important to realize how we've changed and grown since we popped open that champagne bottle (champagne's gross, I don't drink- it's just fun to open it), and banged on those pots and pans almost exactly one year ago.

Where was I at this time last year? To be honest, I don't really remember. Haha... that's really funny. It's not because I was drunk or anything- that's not my scene- but I honestly don't remember.

But, I can remember that two years ago I really liked this guy and was trying to convice him to come hang out with me and my friends on New Years Eve. But, he had just broken his arm really badly and I think his mom wanted him to stay home and rest. So I thought that he was going to stay home when he told me he couldn't come- but I found out at school that he ended up going out with him friends.
Now, he did tell me that he liked me a couple of days before, so I would like to stress the fact that I wasn't some needy, annoying girl BEGGING him to come over. I don't do that- I put great effort into not being that person.
He didn't come.
And I had fun with my friends.
I still really liked him, and at school we hung out together a little bit, but I guess he lost interest in me after a while.

So it's been two years since that happened, and only now am I truly beginning to understand that God didn't want me to be with him because he did NOT treat me the way that a guy treats a girl that he really cares about. In fact, I don't think he really cared at all, because for almost the entire time that I liked him (and he supposedly liked me), there was ALWAYS another girl in the picture. It was like he couldn't make up his mind. He would juggle between us, either ignoring me and hanging out with her, or vice versa. It still makes me angry when I think about it. And it still hurts a little. So I would like to say to any guy who's reading this- don't do that kind of stuff! If you don't like a girl, or even if you do like her but don't want to be serious about it, BE HONEST! Don't play games like this guy did. Even if she's really mad at you at first, she will be grateful in the long run that you didn't allow her to waste her time on you if you don't want to be with her.
I kind of hope that one day, I will be able to to tell the guy who did this to me that he was a jerk. Or maybe, he will realize it on his own after all the girls he hurt gang up on him!

Don't get me wrong- I know that there are good guys out there, and I know that God has one just for me... I just wish he would hurry up... Any thoughts?

Ciao, bella
-ellie

but I'm only sixteen!

I think my eyes are starting to go bad. I’ve noticed that I’ve been doing that squinty thing that my dad does when I can’t read something in small print. It’s kind of weird… I’ve wondered what it would be like to have glasses or contacts or whatever and I think it would be COOLIO! But I know that if I do get them… I probably wont feel that way anymore. So maybe I’ll just stop. I just want to go to sleep.

My sister and I have discovered this kind of corny but really awesome song and we had a jolly good time dancing around in the living room with our dog while we were doing dishes yesterday. It was RIDICULOUSLY fun. Oh. I guess I should tell you the song.. it’s called ‘New World’ by TobyMac and it’s all about Narnia! (Does that surprise you…?)

My first bloooog

Hello, hello. This is my first post on this beautiful blog of mine. I'm excited. I hope you enjoy reading my thoughts...
More to come.
Ciao for now...
Ellie